Light Bulb

Now when self care, self love & self improvement comes to mind I’m sure many thoughts come to mind. Don’t know what steps to take? Do something relaxing or nice for yourself, maybe get a massage, get a mani & pedi, read a book that you’d like, buy or make yourself your fav drink like coffee, smoothie or tea, buy yourself a new outfit or new shoes, eat breakfast at a new restaurant, etc. Now by doing this will it make all your problems go away or make you feel better forever? No but just the small pleasures can eventually lead to something bigger, the small gestures are just the beginning & can help you be at peace or comfortable in the moment because even though you’ll experience joy for a moment that’s better than not doing anything at all. I remember when I went to the mall just to kill some time after I’ve done my errands & chores, I remember seeing my fav perfume which was Viva La Juicy by Juicy Courtier. It’s pretty expensive so I hardly buy it but when I seen it I was like oh my fav let me buy it screw it I deserve it. By me doing that made me feel good like wow I bought something for myself & didn’t hesitate or felt guilty about it. Now eventually when I got home it was back to reality but at least I did something small for myself & it made a difference in my day & in my mood. So by experiencing that I realized well if something that small made me feel good I can imagine what else. So slowly I started buying myself more clothes, shoes, accessories & hair products. I felt like wow “Angie” is back & I remember her being a girly girl & feeling pretty & it felt nice that the woman in me was coming back up. When I was in a relationship with my son’s dad I always put him & my son first & “Angie” was put to sleep. Now there’s nothing wrong with making my relationship & my child feel important & prioritizing them but little did I realize that I wasn’t doing that to myself. So now that I became a single mom I was actually forced to realize it, I didn’t do it on my own, I had to learn while having time to myself which was an obligation since I was also single & my son would go to his dads house every other weekend. Throughout the beginning I started slowly becoming myself again but this time a different version that was also healing. Angie was not only a woman but a healing woman, a mother, a rejuvenated person which little did I know was really only the very beginning. What small steps or gestures would you do? Are you becoming the best version of yourself? Are you healing? Are you forgiving yourself? No matter what, do the small things, they do matter, they are a necessity. Is the light bulb on?